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Fucking Depression...D:

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 20, 2009, 10:00 PM

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Unfortunately... i think my deep depression is coming back. :depressed:

For the past week now, i've been feeling extremely irritable and depressed.

I'm not sure why...probably this whole Lloyd thing :roll: (The fact that he has this on and off relationship with this other girl. And how i'm kinda just like second choice to him. :|)
I try to act like it doesn't bother me, but inside i feel like my heart is breaking into a million pieces. And i'm sick of pretending like everything's fine.
And when ever he says "I love you" to me, I never truly believe him....It hurts, and i hate feeling this way. But I just don't know what to do. I love him very much, but i really don't wanna keep getting my heart broken. And the closer i get to him, the more hurt i get in the end. :(
I honestly wish i could just curl up in a little ball and sleep forever. :depressed:

Plus, I hate righting these journals because i know i always end up sounding like some little whiny emo kid. :|

but...whatever. I just needed to get that off my chest. :P

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My name's Hilary, I'm 15 years old and I live in the bay area California. :aww:

:)~likes~
The Across the universe movie
Drawing
Any type of Art
Expressing myself
Music
The Beatles
All Tim burton movies
Love
Passionate things
movies
Friends
People who are for real...
people you can actually trust
My chemical romance, Attack attack, Escape the fate, Brokencyde, and Avenged sevenfold.
Hugs
Not being depressed
Hot Chocolate
Living in the city
Animals
Marilyn Manson
Talking on the phone
Dressing up like a circus freak
Pissing off teachers at school :aww:
my ipod
Blood and gore realated stuff
Johnny the homicidal maniac :D
The color black
That 70's show
The show Heroes
hanging out with friends
and visiting new places.


:(~Dislikes~
Fakes
Stupid people...(They piss me off) :|
People who are full of themselves.
Liars
Being bipolar :|
Depression
Life (sometimes)
not being able to draw something, when you knwo you have a really good idea of it in your head.
Having you heart broken
Getting dumped
Seeing the one you love, love someone else. -_-
Being stabbed (yes, it's happened) :|
Being lied to
Having a friend die
Going to a fucked up school
Drama
Stupid girls who start shit.
being labled.
Feeling so depressed you can hardly get yourself out of bed.
Homework
Adults who tell you they understand what your going through, when they really don't.
People who say meds can take all the pain away, when it really just adds to it.
Country music
My annoying-ass siblings
Annoying Twilight fans :|
Edward cullen
Miley cyrus. :chainsaw:
The jonas brothers
War
People against Gay rights
Racist people
and other stupid shit in this world... = /

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: San Francisco California ...(but mostly in my own little world)
  • Interests: Art, drawing, movies, sleeping, music, friends
  • Favourite movie: Sweeney todd | Horton hears a who | Across the universe | Little miss sunshine | Tim burton movies|
  • Favourite band or musician: My chemical romance | Escape the fate | Brokencyde | Attack Attack | The Beatles | Avenged sevenfold
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternitave, screamo, some metal. mostly rock.
  • Favourite artist: All my awesome friends on dA
  • Favourite poet or writer: Edgar allen poe
  • Favourite style of art: Painting or drawing
  • MP3 player of choice: ipod
  • Favourite cartoon character: Jojo...i guess or Mickey mouse D: He's bad-ass. =p
  • Personal Quote: My brain hurts =|

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~xRenOx Nov 6, 2009, 11:54:13 PM
hi XD
long time ~

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~gasp!~ where'd my sig go?!
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~Emochic14 Nov 7, 2009, 10:36:46 AM
Hi! :D

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"I'll eat you up, I love you so..." ~Where the wild things are
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Damn right I'm good in bed!!! :noes: ...i can sleep for days. =p
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~xRenOx Nov 8, 2009, 5:12:28 AM
whats up did i miss much ?
i had gone for a long vacation XD

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~gasp!~ where'd my sig go?!
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~music-child824 Oct 23, 2009, 1:45:49 PM
:matrixfight:

just wanted to put something random,
nice pics,
by the way

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I am the walrus
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~Emochic14 Oct 23, 2009, 3:58:23 PM
lol um....alright, random's good :XD:

And thanks :)

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Damn right I'm good in bed!!! :noes: ...i can sleep for days. =p
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~music-child824 Oct 23, 2009, 1:45:46 PM
:matrixfight:

just wanted to put something random,
nice pics,
by the way

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I am the walrus
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~Ostler5000 Sep 30, 2009, 10:05:24 AM
Why, hello thar.

I apologize if I'm mistaken, but I think it was you I spoke to on Omegle, yesterday?
I was bored and randomly put your email address into Google and this was the only result.


I hope you don't mind me contacting you via DA. :3
Just so you know, I'm not new to DA, but I only got this account recently. My other account has issues I'd rather not talk about. xD
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~Emochic14 Oct 1, 2009, 7:38:13 AM
lol No no, it's fine :aww:


Hiya! :wave:
And yeah, that was me on Omegle...congrats..you found my dA account...haha :XD:

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~Ostler5000 Oct 1, 2009, 8:41:18 AM
Heh, awesome. Imagine how stupid I'd look if it was the wrong person? xD
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~Emochic14 Oct 1, 2009, 12:04:31 PM
hahah yyyeah...that would suck
:XD:
but so yeah...anyway...what's up? :)

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Damn right I'm good in bed!!! :noes: ...i can sleep for days. =p
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~Ostler5000 Oct 1, 2009, 12:45:13 PM
Not alot. Got a 4 hour skive at College today thanks to one of my tutors apparently being at some party or something.
Obviously, because partys are a perfectly reasonable excuse to skip work. xD

Same tutor for 4 hours, he's not there. Awesome. :3

Although, I did get to sit about doing work for one of the subjects, which was based on comics. Basicly I just need to design my own comic character, and his storyline, etc. Which is easy, as I already have one, just never had the time to actually make it into anything. It's also interesting to think if maybe this lesson will help me improve my drawing ability enough to make a webcomic, or better yet, the flash webtoon-based comic I thought out ages ago. xD



...Damn I ramble.

And how about yourself?
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~Koolness221 Sep 6, 2009, 7:47:08 AM
Thanks for teh fave!:hug:

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~Emochic14 Sep 7, 2009, 2:18:45 PM
No problem! :aww: :hug:

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I tried sniffing coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck up my noes :B
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~iFloe Sep 4, 2009, 12:59:39 PM
You commented on my picture in an old account. I purged the gallery so I couldn't really argue.
You left me a comment going "you're a fucking ugly bitch"?
My old gallery is katsura-ryuugu, if that jogs your mind.
But I was wondering what was the reason for such harassment?

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~Emochic14 Sep 4, 2009, 4:23:26 PM
Yeah..that was because you said something really rude and un-called for to me a while ago. :| like that i'm a "fucking Faggot" or a "N00b..."
So, when i saw your picture, i just thought i'd leave a comment...

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I tried sniffing coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck up my noes :B
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If you met my family you'd understand... :|
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~iFloe Sep 4, 2009, 4:25:36 PM
Well, I apologize for whatever I've done.
It was immature of me, more than likely you were just unfortunate enough to encounter me in a bad mood.

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I am Azazer at SO RP
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~Emochic14 Sep 4, 2009, 6:13:16 PM
Ah, i see. yyeah...it's okay..^^;

I'm sorry too...:invisible: I didn't really mean what i said, i was just pissed off...^^;

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I tried sniffing coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck up my noes :B
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If you met my family you'd understand... :|
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~iFloe Sep 4, 2009, 6:17:27 PM
It's okay, I understand.
We were both in the wrong.
Glad we got that behind us.

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I am part of kitty-kitty-koneko's Eveeloution family
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~PillowLove Sep 3, 2009, 9:34:01 PM
ty for the :+fav:'s love ^^

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~"Why go through life unnoticed?"~
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~Emochic14 Sep 3, 2009, 9:47:23 PM
No problem hun :aww:

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I tried sniffing coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck up my noes :B
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If you met my family you'd understand... :|
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~ElectricGirl2 Aug 31, 2009, 7:48:40 PM
Thanks for the fave Hilary ^~^

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One Person's Craziness is one person's Reality
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P.S.
My Names Paulina :giggle:

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~Emochic14 Aug 31, 2009, 7:51:09 PM
No problem 8D

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I tried sniffing coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck up my noes :B
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If you met my family you'd understand... :|
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